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I took this pic on 05/06/10

This is a poem that my friend, Stephen, wrote especially for me! 🙂

Moving…friendship radar…

It’s time to move again. I thought I was done moving…apparently not. This house…this town…these schools…the grocery stores…the parks…my church…everything…was what I thought I was supposed to be settling into.   We’ve only lived here for a year!!!  We moved to this area almost a year and a half ago, then moved to a neighboring town to settle and raise our kids.  We even had taken the high schools for our children into consideration.  Actually, it’s only been 11 months!!!  I guess this is so astonishing to me, because for the first 11 years of our marriage we always knew we would be moving.  There was always that risk…that underlying threat.  I was never fully comfortable anywhere we have lived in the past…I always knew the friends I was making-I would be leaving. 

So, almost a year ago I believed with all my heart that everything I was choosing and investing my time in…would be for the long-term.  This was the first time in my adult-hood that I ever felt like this.  Now it’s gone!!  It’s so very strange too…I look around, at my church, and there’s really not that many people who are genuinely going to miss me.  I know there are a couple…and finding a couple of genuine friends is absolutely priceless!  I have one “friend” who responded to one of my tweets that implied my moving, and he asked if I was moving, I said “yes, probably this summer”…and he didn’t even reply anything back…ever.  I don’t know why he never replied…but it does make me sad.  This last Sunday at church I was looking around and trying to notice who my “friends” were…it wasn’t what I wanted to see.  I do have some other friends at the other church campus…I know for sure there is one friend that attends that campus that I will have forever!  Most people are very supportive and know that this is something that our family needs to do, and they wish us the best, they know we will still be connected via Facebook or other sites…but not one person acted like they genuinely cared that we would be gone.  Gone.   Well…I take that back…my children’s teachers did act like they really cared…but not the people who I generally spend my time serving with.  Maybe it’s because nothing official has happened yet…or maybe it’s because we just aren’t connected the way I thought we were.  Oh…wait!!  There is one lady that I do believe sincerely cares!  She is such a wonderful lady!  I guess this makes me sad…is because I care.  I wanted to be connected and journey through life with these people.  Like a family.  With this being the first time believing I was in a place long-term…I was looking forward to having a ‘family’.  

I feel kind of weird about noticing certain levels of friendship at this time…but there is another reason why I am doing so.  Recently, my husband and I had a pretty hard time…and only a few people from the church were aware about the circumstances.   It has been strange seeing the way some friends and/or leaders responded to this situation.  There was only 1 couple, and 2 individual guys who were constant sources of support…the rest of the people who knew just let it drop…or didn’t do anything at all…not even pastors.  So my ‘friendship radar’ has been a little hyper-sensitive lately.  This has been emotionally exhausting for me seeing how am not a very emotional person to begin with.      

These are just a tiny few of the thoughts that are going through this brain of mine.  I have so many thoughts swimming right now…with this moving.

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

3. he restores my soul.  He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4. Even though I walk throught the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.  You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 

6. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

I am a wife and a mother of 4 wonderful children…most importantly I am a child of God. I have so very much to learn…so very much to be thankful for! I enjoy the little things in life, I don’t need much at all. I am most grateful for Jesus and His love. On this Earth I am most thankful for my healthy and beautiful children…as long as they are healthy I can march through just about anything!…but I absolutely love the ‘highs’ much, much more than the ‘lows’!! ;-D I’ve had quite a few of each! I look forward to sharing and learning from others on this site.

So…how to blog? How does one blog I’m wondering… I am excited to blog, but like other sites I post I must mind my manners. Not to say that I’m not well-mannered…just acknowledging to myself and possibly others that I intend to mind them (manners).
But…how does one blog about one’s realllll feelings?…if I was able to construct a poem, then maybe I could encrypt my feelings that way without offending or letting anyone on that I’m talking about them!! Ha-ha…darn…I am not a poet…so here I am back to minding my manners.
I hope to be able to blog about personal things in my life…without complaining…without gossip…and without offending anyone. I’m thinking I might flub on any one of these things at one time or another, because I am perfectly human!
I am excited to blog and share!
I pray and hope to not disappoint anyone with my feelings, experiences, or humanness!
Much Love,
Me